Update for general sanity

Wow, haven't written in so long.

I'll tell you the deal with me. When I'm happy and content, I spend more time experiencing than writing. I'm not big on photographs either. Most of the time I don't understand peoples' need to update people on everything - what airline lounge/5-star hotel they're checked into, exactly what restaurant are they eating at on their honeymoon, or simply 20 self shots in the same photo album. Please discount my Twitter account, that's just to ward off a little loneliness from time to time.

I also do not write when I don't wish to share. (Which is rare considering how much I talk!) Some things are very personal to me. Like I'll barely talk about my friends here, because I love them to death. They're all mine. What they say, what they think...it's mine to keep. My two different friends circles also don't know much about each other, it's that extreme! :P My general love is intense and it's not on display. I love when I love. I don't have to prove a point. And then sometimes I'm scared it'll elude me after a bit. It has happened quite a bit. It's no fun losing people right after you thought they were gonna stay a while and made a big huge declaration about it.

About half a month ago, I joined a company I've wanted to work with for a long time. People who know me, know what a big deal it is for me. And though I'm scared as hell, 'cause I wanna be good at this more than anything I've wanted in a very very long time, this is quite possibly the most exciting thing that's happened to me in recent past. I've learnt more here in half a month than I did in the last one year at my previous organization and, if you ask me, that's a hell of a reason to wake up every morning.

So you get why it took me so long to make this post? I'm a little in love with life right now.

Sorry I have nothing profound, interesting or poetic to say. I just wanted to write because this blog is important to me and it bothered me to not have made a post in a while :)

Can I just say one more thing? Push your limits. Go for it. You'll never know until you try.

Cloudsuicide

Family of little bunnies

parted by air

dancing with the breeze

and the traction of aeroplanes

One hefty grandpa

suffers an existential crisis

contemplates death of self

Worried, he looks misty and dark

and immobile

how will his kin survive, without him,

the stratospheric turmoil?

He gathers them around

one last time

briefs them about the mass exodus

Explains to them his plan will fail

if they don't dive together

Naive father-mother, innocent bubbly children
tie themselves to one another

All three generations say a little prayer

unbuckle their seat belts and jump souther

Rapidly, tumbling down

running away from the hole in the sky

galloping through air

they've swallowed distance completely

When they fall on my parched skin

in rain and hail and sleetly

I look up at the sky

This is no ordinary noise

but thunderous applause

Grandpa, you've finally reached your destiny

and this suicide seems to be the probable cause.

Words

Must you keep your words locked
In a tiny little box?
They feel of wood, they smell of wine
And they sound of whispers divine
Does everyone have a key?
Does everyone have the key, but me?
What if I say Please?
Dear friend,
I won't pretend
I can't pretend
You know me well
And your words that have always meshed with mine
Do they fear me now?
Conversations changing in an instant
To uncomfortable silences
I can taste the bile parchness in my mouth
We're woefully overcompensating, but
We can get past this bump in the road, I believe.
Though you're not offering me yours
Here are a few words of mine
Kiddo, hand me the coveted key
When you change your mind.